Love Fred P

Your arms wrap around me I turn away trying to escape You tell me you will never let me go My cries go unheard You tell me you care Yet you violate me You try to justify this by Telling me you Love me I ask myself “does he know what love is” No because … Continue reading →

Dancing With Satan

Thoughts racing Blade in hand Decision to be made Taunts of do it, do it Running thru my head Old tapes playing Fighting not to listen Not giving up Not giving in Satan taunting Lies being told You are no good You are ugly You deserve to die God speaking Telling me it will be … Continue reading →

Trust

Trust Such a strong word A word that is difficult When that trust is broken Vulnerability Raw emotion Fear Anger Bitterness These are the emotions and feelings I associate with trust where my relatives are concerned. Trust that is unbroken allows me to feel cared about and loved it does not leave me feeling bitter … Continue reading →

Words of a Survivor

Pain felt Tears Shed Dreams hidden Safety Challenged Vulnerability Violated Trust broken Promises unkept

Memories Flowing

Memories flowing Fighting struggling losing Battles of the body Battles of the mind Wondering will this ever end Flashes brief flashes long Some clear some dazed Fire burning on the alter Animal caught Throat slit Heart cut out Divided among us Offerings given Offerings taken No tears allowed to be shed Too weak Need to … Continue reading →

Broken

Broken I was once whole After each touch I began to break Into many little pieces You told me you loved me Each time you touched me You said how beautiful I was Yet you were unaware of Just how many pieces I was Breaking into inside Now as I try To put the broken … Continue reading →

Free to Be Me

You told me to trust you Yet you never gave me a reason to You said this would be our secret This was not my secret to keep You told me you loved me I learned to believe this to be true But now I have begun this journey Called healing and am learning What … Continue reading →

Soaring Wings

You may have tried to stifle me With your sick ways Yet here I am flying on my own You may have thought you could control me But I escaped and learned to believe Your ways are not my ways So do not continue to try to control me As I will continue to spread … Continue reading →